I dont even know anymore...I want to draw and i want to write, yet why do i feel so depressed?? I feel like i dont know what i'm suppose to do anymore. I'm turning seventeen and i'm scared of what the future holds for me. I love my family and I keep seeing things just fly by in my life and i feel like I'm just gonna be lonely. I can't argue a fight or an opinion and i feel negelted. The only place i thought i would always feel home to...its really not any more.
I'm confused and i dont know what to do. I can't seem to write what I want and draw what I want, for its taking so long.
I'm an idoit, thats all what I am.
I'm not trying to get pitty I think its the truth.
I'm not pretty, not skinny like all the other tooth picks I see becasue they dont eat and i'm not smart. Only thing I can do it draw adn photoshop and even in that i'm still bad. I can't write and Ijust dont know what to think of myself anymore.
So many things run through my head I dont even know where to turn. Everyone loves my sister, Everyone loves my brothers, everyone loves my parents....what am I? I'm jsut a dumb shadow jsut tryign to get by. I'm usless in anyway I think possibly.
I'm just the quiet shadow that says nothing....nothing at all...so why te heck haven't I been able to do anything about it. I hate to vent for i hate to complain, but i guess now is the only time i get to. Why am I not good at anything? WHy do I have such a wonderful family yet I'm possibly the only one thats the outsider.
I dont understand things anymore.
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it's okay. i was like, "hey, mom, I want to be a writer!" and she's like, "really? you suck at writing." and so I told my boyfriend that I wanted to be a writer and he said my stories were too boring for him to read. ;-;
D8<
you'll get back to it! give it sometime~
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School been getting to me and i'm tired and eh...I dont know.
I want to write but school gets in the way...as usual.
I've given it a lot of time. I've been still drawing and what not and writing yet i still dont know what really is wrong with me.
(You owe me a reply missy
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wahh, well get over it soon. D8<
I wanna see your arts. >__<
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I'll download as soon as i get the chance...i can't get the scanner >_<
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