I dont even know anymore...I want to draw and i want to write, yet why do i feel so depressed?? I feel like i dont know what i'm suppose to do anymore. I'm turning seventeen and i'm scared of what the future holds for me. I love my family and I keep seeing things just fly by in my life and i feel like I'm just gonna be lonely. I can't argue a fight or an opinion and i feel negelted. The only place i thought i would always feel home to...its really not any more.
I'm confused and i dont know what to do. I can't seem to write what I want and draw what I want, for its taking so long.
I'm an idoit, thats all what I am.
I'm not trying to get pitty I think its the truth.
I'm not pretty, not skinny like all the other tooth picks I see becasue they dont eat and i'm not smart. Only thing I can do it draw adn photoshop and even in that i'm still bad. I can't write and Ijust dont know what to think of myself anymore.
So many things run through my head I dont even know where to turn. Everyone loves my sister, Everyone loves my brothers, everyone loves my parents....what am I? I'm jsut a dumb shadow jsut tryign to get by. I'm usless in anyway I think possibly.
I'm just the quiet shadow that says nothing....nothing at all...so why te heck haven't I been able to do anything about it. I hate to vent for i hate to complain, but i guess now is the only time i get to. Why am I not good at anything? WHy do I have such a wonderful family yet I'm possibly the only one thats the outsider.
I dont understand things anymore.
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it's okay. i was like, "hey, mom, I want to be a writer!" and she's like, "really? you suck at writing." and so I told my boyfriend that I wanted to be a writer and he said my stories were too boring for him to read. ;-;
D8<
you'll get back to it! give it sometime~
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&Kura loves and misses Taylor so much. (:
The Italians are gonna mess you up. ;D
School been getting to me and i'm tired and eh...I dont know.
I want to write but school gets in the way...as usual.
I've given it a lot of time. I've been still drawing and what not and writing yet i still dont know what really is wrong with me.
(You owe me a reply missy
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Being a drawer can teach you a few things:
1. Wost critique an artist can get is from the artist themselves.
2. Practice doesn't make you perfect, but it sure does make you better.
3. From where you are now, you can only improve.
wahh, well get over it soon. D8<
I wanna see your arts. >__<
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&Kura loves and misses Taylor so much. (:
The Italians are gonna mess you up. ;D
I'll download as soon as i get the chance...i can't get the scanner >_<
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Being a drawer can teach you a few things:
1. Wost critique an artist can get is from the artist themselves.
2. Practice doesn't make you perfect, but it sure does make you better.
3. From where you are now, you can only improve.
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